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I think I’ve been in denial for a few weeks in regards to returning to work. I’ve been by the office a few times, but today it really hit me.

I have to go back.

The anxiety didn’t really set in until I was looking at my new office. Yep. My office is being moved to a different department, and I’m not even there to oversee things. In fact, I had to mention to my boss that the refrigerator that was in my old office had disappeared, and I was relying on that when I returned. (I really don’t want to go through the work of producing all of Lucas’ meals and not having a place close by to store everything.) I’m not good with change, and I’ve been in my office for 2.5 years. I liked it there. I’m not happy with the move.

We’re very close to having child care set up (fingers crossed that our neighbor who has a daycare in her home will work out.) It only took me how long to secure child care? And this lady just became an option for us recently. It makes me sad to think I have to leave my child with someone who isn’t a family member, but I think this lady may be the best fit for us.

I’m working on making sure Lucas has enough food so we don’t have to supplement with formula, which is a lot of freaking work. And a lot of pressure.

I want to be sure that I still have time to take care of myself, while still spending time with my husband and child. I’m just not sure how it will all balance out once I return to work. And that bothers me.

So, for now, I’m just anxious. Hoping it’ll pass soon.

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  1. ((hugs)) I know it’s been a long time since I was in this situation, but I can empathize. Plus, change in general is freaking hard. Moving offices & returning back to work is a lot to deal with.

  2. Pumping while working is hard work, so I can only suggest stock piling as much as you can while you are off. But it can be done, we haven’t had to supplement with formula yet but we have dipped into the freezer stash maybe once a week for a serving here and there.

    Fingers crossed for the daycare situation to resolve itself. Sounds like the ideal situation, aside from family.

    Big hugs friend..you are doing great!

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Tonight we were having dinner with friends and I started really realizing just how little time we have before the baby arrives – if he arrives on time.

We have 6 weekends between now and August 25 that are not booked. Either Kenny is out of town, we’re both out of town, or we have showers and/or “how to have a baby” classes scheduled.

Six.

And the office is still an office. Granted, the closet is cleared out, but the desks are still here, wall hangings are still up and we haven’t even discussed paint colors. (In the grand scheme of things, I guess beige isn’t the worst color in the world, and we really just need a place for the baby to sleep, right?)

But we don’t even have a bassinet or a crib. Mainly because we’ve been too lazy busy to order the crib.

Lucky for me, our friends were in this same boat two years ago – and they’re two-year-old is just fine now.

I imagine that this feeling only gets worse as the due date approaches. Though, I can always hope that it gets better.

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  1. How did your yard sale go today?? Things will come together & you will wonder why you are worried about these things. Love to all, Aunt Linda

  2. Confession time. Our nursery for the first kid consisted of a changing table, dresser, and crib. We were young and relatively poor and we were renting a house. We didn’t paint. We didn’t decorate. She had a place to sleep (which she didn’t use at all for already a month), clothes and diapers. And it was ok. Order the crib and car seat. And your little man will be just fine. ((hugs))

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