Stream of Consciousness Saturday – week 7 #SOCSaturday #freewriting

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Welcome back to another week of Stream of Consciousness Saturday. This is the time where I spend 5 minutes free writing. I want this to go up on Saturdays, so I’m generally writing this on Friday. Sometimes super early Saturday. Or Sunday, if that’s easier for you.

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The rules….

1. Set a timer for five minutes. (Or keep tabs with your computer’s clock.)

2. Write freely. Any topic. Whatever is on your mind. It doesn’t even have to be completely cohesive.

3. Tag on social media with #SOCSaturday or #SOCSunday and link up below. You have all day Saturday and Sunday to join the link up. It closes Monday morning.

4. Click around and give some comment/blog love.

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It’s no secret I’m a fan of Timehop. Earlier this week, a video popped up on my Timehop. One I shot of Aslyn four or five years ago. I love her music and I haven’t listened to her songs in well over a year.

I then looked at my YouTube channel (which is mostly private, and something I have never promoted.) It was interesting to see how many concert videos I had. I listened to my videos while working yesterday and it brought back so many great memories. I love music. That love has not changed. I guess my love has just shifted a little. (I noticed that my more recent videos are all baby milestones. They’re cute, but not always the most musical.)

I think I’m finally finding myself again. I went to a concert a week ago and for the first time in a long while, I just enjoyed myself at a show. I was able to catch up with a longtime friend and it was like old times – except we were drinking water instead of alcohol and the concert may have started at 6 p.m. instead of 11 p.m.

I’ve been on this anxious edge for a year. The shoe dropped last August, and it has taken so long to feel comfortable again. As I was talking with some students this week, they kind of verified why I enjoy my new career so much. They’re excited about the changes I’m making (just by connecting with them!) and feeling their excitement was better than any performance review.

I do believe I still have a little ways to go before I’m shiny-happy-ME again, but I’m on my way. I’m just hoping the other shoe doesn’t drop anytime soon.

Oh and that video? I took a look. I first posted it 5 years ago. Seems like a lifetime.

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23 Comments

  1. I love this post. You’ve done an amazing job of holding it together, but I am so happy you are on your way to “you” again. It always stinks to feel out of sorts. I felt like that for a while when I quit teaching. I was ecstatic to be home with the boys but at a loss at what I wanted to be when I grew up. In the meantime, our bank account was being drained. Eeek. I feel like I am finally hitting my stride as well.

  2. What a great post, I am so happy you are finding yourself again. Keep taking it day by day and enjoy the music!!

  3. This was a cool post. I think that the timehop app is really neat, except that I can’t use it on my android device. *pout* I love the idea of free writing too! I remember in school that was a big thing.

  4. Loved reading this. It’s so great to read that you are on your way to being you again. I hope sooner rather than later, you are absolutely happy and in love with your life wholeheartedly. It’s necessary to take time for ourselves and enjoy the things that we once loved…don’t give those things up…no matter what. šŸ™‚

  5. WE just have to be open to the path. When one door opens, etc., that means some time might be spent in the hallway, that s always the toughest part. That’s where I was stuck fr a few years before I discovered this perfect blogging career.

  6. I have seen everyone using Timehop in my FB feed, but haven’t gotten around to it yet. I think that some of the hops would be very bittersweet with my babies getting so much older.

  7. I remember what it felt like every time I “found myself ” a little more. It’s such a great freeing feeling. I get butterflies and have so much excitement inside I can barely contain it.

  8. So glad you find your self again sometimes we often might derail of our paths and lose a bit of ourselves, some people will go on without ever feel themselves complete.

  9. My husband is in bootcamp and he loves when I write him streaming consciousness letters. I found them to be most liberating for me too. I get everything off my mind, I skip around and I fall asleep easily afterwards.

  10. I think I may be the only one who doesn’t have the time hop app. Love seeing everyone’s looks back though, and may have to consider getting the app for myself. šŸ™‚
    Glad you’re back to feeling more like yourself… <3

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