Welcome back to another week of Stream of Consciousness Saturday. This is the time where I spend 5 minutes free writing. I want this to go up on Saturdays, so I’m generally writing this on Friday. Sometimes super early Saturday. Or Sunday, if that’s easier for you.
1. Set a timer for five minutes. (Or keep tabs with your computer’s clock.)
2. Write freely. Any topic. Whatever is on your mind. It doesn’t even have to be completely cohesive.
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It’s no secret I’m a fan of Timehop. Earlier this week, a video popped up on my Timehop. One I shot of Aslyn
four or five years ago. I love her music and I haven’t listened to her songs in well over a year.
I then looked at my YouTube channel (which is mostly private, and something I have never promoted.) It was interesting to see how many concert videos I had. I listened to my videos while working yesterday and it brought back so many great memories. I love music. That love has not changed. I guess my love has just shifted a little. (I noticed that my more recent videos are all baby milestones. They’re cute, but not always the most musical.)
I think I’m finally finding myself again. I went to a concert a week ago and for the first time in a long while, I just enjoyed myself at a show. I was able to catch up with a longtime friend and it was like old times – except we were drinking water instead of alcohol and the concert may have started at 6 p.m. instead of 11 p.m.
I’ve been on this anxious edge for a year. The shoe dropped last August, and it has taken so long to feel comfortable again. As I was talking with some students this week, they kind of verified why I enjoy my new career so much. They’re excited about the changes I’m making (just by connecting with them!) and feeling their excitement was better than any performance review.
I do believe I still have a little ways to go before I’m shiny-happy-ME again, but I’m on my way. I’m just hoping the other shoe doesn’t drop anytime soon.
Oh and that video? I took a look. I first posted it 5 years ago. Seems like a lifetime.